Hmmm.
The difference between...

Loving someone,
And being in love.

Yeah.

I think i'm in love.
I'm floating high with nowhere to go but down.
But i kind of like it

Goodnight.

say goodbye to my best friend

hmm.
bad days...
suck.
movie with gretchen and i think carly.
basically my only friends i like. plus tessa.
i need to move.
and get some new friends.
cuz this is bullshit.

[Edit]

first the mic then a half cigarette
singing Cathy's clown
that's the man she's married to now
that's the girl that he takes around town
she appears composed, so she is, I suppose
who can really tell
she shows no emotion at all
stares into space like a dead china doll

I'm never gonna know you now
but I'm gonna love you anyhow

now she's done and they're calling someone
such a familiar name
I'm so glad that my memories remote
'cause I'm doing just fine hour to hour, note to note
here it is the revenge to the tune
you're no good
you're no good, you're no good, you're no good
can't you tell that it's well understood

I'm never gonna know you now
but I'm gonna love you anyhow

I'm here today and expected to stayon and on and on
I'm tired, I'm tired

looking out on the substitute scene
still going strong
XO, mom, it's ok, it's alright, nothing's wrong
tell Mr. Man with impossible plansto just leave me alone
in the place where I make no mistakes
in the place where I have what it takes

I'm never gonna know you now
but I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm never gonna know you now
but I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm never gonna know you now
but I'm gonna love you anyhow

I'm you're biggest fan

so...
i fucking hate my school.
like...everyone, honestly EVERYONE there pisses me off besides a few people.
i need to move.
i hate it here
soo much.
my friends piss me off.
i'd honestly rather be friendless.
skdjf;lsjf;slkjfs;lfj;lksdfj;slkfj;sldfkjs;lfk

i need to be anti social.

Currently Listening Nightmare of You By Nightmare of You I dont remember what the songs called. see related

WHOOP

Everyones out with the whoop!
its insane!
like no one is at school. skdlfj;slk
and now Gretchen has it!
weeeeeee'll see if I have it soon enough.

I fucking had to miss a driving lesson today!
BAH!

life is over.
Basically.

you just wait till someone dies!

kay i'm a freak.
goodbye.

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Currently Listening XO By Elliott Smith waltz#2 see related

Well

So on Saturday, when Carly, Booty, Chelsea and I went to see the science of sleeping, when we were waiting to go home Chelsea was talking about Elliot Smith and how it had been like __years since he died.  From what I remember my mommy really loved him. like alot.
like that one song ....

"I'm never gonna know you now,
but i'm gonna love you any how"

I knew that song since my mommy and I would listen to it.
and I kind of went searching for it and I found it. I guess..finding it was kind of like getting your ears pierced for the first time..it felt like that..and it hurt so bad and my eyes started to water because that is the one song that will forever remind me of my mommy. besides all the other things that one song means more then anything. and it hurts more then words could describe because i miss her so much.

I sometimes think about what it would be like if she didn't die.
and the things that i think of are alot better then everything now.
I miss actually having a family more then anything in the world.
I want my daddy to come back. I really don't want him to get sent away or whatever.
I have one last chance to get close to my daddy like I used to be and I really hope I don't lose it.

I miss so many people.
I need a vacation.
I need to see my Selene.